The Wailing Lament Update - I

The Wailing Lament Update is simply a paragraph or two or ten about what's happening in my life right now.

*puts hands in pocket, sets cap on head and stares at a signpost pointing four ways*

I stand at the proverbial crossroad. I can either give a full complement of Science Subjects in full or I can change to Sociology and Psychology. A gap year does me no real harm, yet I want to get on with this. I'm sick and I'm tired of A Levels. It represents all that is wrong with my life. It was like this, when A Levels started, I used to think, dude you can do this, its only 3 subjects. Work at it, you can get thoes A's. After a couple of months, I was like alright, A's might be hard to get, but try for B's atleast. They're good enough to get you into AKU. Then the Mid-Terms came along, and I was like dude, just do enough to make the grade at AKU, thats it. You'll do something at the interview, just do enough to get there. Fast forward time another month or two, and I said to myself forget AKU, do enough to get into any Medical College. After the first year in A Levels, I kicked myself mentally in the butt, and I was like wtf were you thinking? You can't do medical. Just get decent grades. Gave bloody AS in November again, and finally I was like this can all bloody well go to hell. Just pass. Finally, now, today, I think to myself, you know what? A Levels can bite my ass. I just want this to finish. I want this to end so I can get out of here. Why did all this happen you ask?? That my friend, is a long story (and I mean LONG) and at this point in time, no answer is forthcoming. Some things happened that should'tn have and totally derailed me. Shit happens.

There is a little story about why I wanted to do Medical and why I wanted to go to AKU. Maybe I'll weave that tale for you at some point in the future.

So yeah, here I am now with my A Levels Registrations Forms. I'm going to give Sociology in May/June, provided I get off my ass and make my Identity Card, go to some bank, deposit an insane amount of money for one paper (with a second level penalty probably), go back with the receipt for insane amount of money deposited and give all those papers to some guy in the British Council. I can always give my two papers in November as well, in which case I can just sit back, relax for once, catch up on movies and songs. Give proper time to my writing and this blog. Blow some dust off my guitar and start practising again. That's cool too.

Me being me, I don't see the purpose behind this. I love to write, therefore I want to pursue a career in Journalism, however, there are a whole lot of people who think that is not practical because there is no money in it. Well I really don't care if there is no money in it. Doing what you like is freedom. Liking what you do is happiness. Maybe I'm just naive, but you know what? I like it that way. I'm happy being ignorant, so there. I'm going to BNU, I'm doing Journalism and that is that. I'd like to see anybody, barring my dad and their admissions officer, stop me.

On a more non-academic front, I've quit smoking and started praying again. 5 times a day in the mosque. I want to smoke right now but I'm not going to. I'm well happy with myself.

*whistles and walks away from signposts*