*Walks up a road into a green field and lies down under a tree near a running stream*
Every so often, something happens that changes your life for the better. It might be a decision you make or maybe it's just luck but it sure feels good.
My last update was all about how I was thinking about appearing in May/June and changing my subjects. I didn't do that and man, am I glad I didn't. I decided to take a break. Just waste time and go with the flow. Sometimes you need to do that, just because youre 18 or 19 doesn't mean your invincible, and it's done wonders. I've been praying regularly and I'm down to 2 cigarettes a day (some of you may recall me quitting, well that didn't work out). It feels strange to say this but I'm content, almost happy. It's almost as if I'm laying my demons to rest one by one and thats a hard thing to do. I don't know and more importantly, I don't care. I've only know such peace for about 2 and half years of my life, give or take a month, and now to have attained it by myself, I feel complete. Yet, I feel more alone now than I ever have before and thats how it will stay I guess. There's nobody to share this feeling with and that feels kind of bad I guess. In God I trust however :).
*Smiles and goes to sleep*
2 comments:
you just shared how you feel with the whole world by writing how u felt.:).im proud of you...sameera
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